Dear Olivia - An Open Letter To Myself

14 Feb 2018

Dear Olivia,

I'm writing to you in the hopes that you read this back in a few months time, or maybe next year, or even just if things get tough next week, because I want you to know that in this moment in time, you are doing so so well. Things are great and you're extremely content with life on the chilly February afternoon that you're typing this on.

Everyone knows that Valentine's Day is supposed to be showing everyone around you that you care about them and are grateful to have them in your life, but I'm being a little bit selfish this year. I feel like you deserve to show yourself a bit of self-love and thank yourself for all the cool stuff that you're achieving right now. If people give you stick for making this day about you, ignore them - you've spent so much of your time tinkering away behind the scenes and working hard to get stuff done. You're a total girl boss and this letter is going to tell you exactly why.

University is a lot, but you're pushing yourself as hard as you can to do the best that you can. At the time of writing this, you've just had all your first semester marks back and you've got a distinction overall. A bloody distinction! You set your bar low and aimed for merit level marks, but you've knuckled down and got the best marks that you've ever received, even better than those that you received at undergraduate level. Honestly, it hasn't sunk in yet, and maybe it never will. You could be sitting there, reading this now, with your Masters degree in a frame, and it still might not feel real. You questioned whether or not this was the right thing to do and whether you were wasting your time on doing another degree, but listen, you are exactly where you need to be.

Not only are you smashing university, but your volunteer work is going so well. Who knew that when you took on the digital media manager role 2 years ago, you'd still be doing it now and doing it brilliantly? The amount of times that you've been thanked for all of the things you do for the WI is insane and it never gets any less lovely. You also had no idea how much it would help you in your degree. You should hear the things you have to say about making Wordpress, Twitter and Facebook work, and how to get more exposure on each! You've just finished writing your CV for an assignment and the WI volunteer work is like an absolute gem on it. Your future is bright!

Let's talk about those body image problems that have plagued you for years. You're still having those down moments where you wish that you didn't have a serious addiction to chocolate and pizza, but you've reclaimed the things that you once hated about yourself and turned them into something more positive. You used to hate your chunky thighs, but now, you wouldn't be without them! While there are things that you want to change and tone up, like your bingo wings, you've accepted that they're there right now, but won't be if you keep working on them. Your thoughts about yourself have become so much healthier and I'm so proud of how far you've come.

Just keep going on the way you are and you'll be amazed at what you can achieve. Throughout all the intense uni work and tasks that you have to do each week for the WI, you've held down a consistent blogging schedule (with some of the best content you've ever written, if I do say so myself), improved your photography and thrown yourself into your bar job. You do get tired now and then, but it's temporary and you're slowly learning to let yourself have time off. Speaking of which, I hope that you've finished that magical creatures cross stitch calendar - it's been well over a year since you started it, get it done!

Don't let anyone make you feel bad about yourself and always keep your chin up. It's ok to be your own biggest fan and to cheer yourself on, and that's exactly what this letter is for. It's a reminder that you're where you need to be and that you can do whatever you put your mind to.

Lots of love,

Whould you like to comment?

  1. This was such a nice post to read and its something that I am thinking about doing for myself. It's important to show your own progress and I think this is an excellent way to do it.
    Love your blog.

    1. Yeeees, definitely do! It's nice to get all your achievements down - it's so therapeutic and good for your confidence! x

  2. Aww Olivia! I loved this x These kind of posts are my favourite and you were just so open and raw here. I think you're going to thank yourself for writing this a few months or years down the line xx Nikita

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    1. Aww Nikita, that was such a gorgeous comment! Thank you xx

  3. This is a wonderful letter :-) You sound like you are doing so well and I hope re-reading it brings you joy and comfort! I wouldn't say you are being selfish, I would say you are taking some time for self-love which is so important!

    1. I'm so thankful for the reassurance! Thank you for the lovely comment x